Time to start fighting back…

I posted an update on my weight loss journey recently and it reminded me that I needed to get back on my diet. But guess what? I didn’t do it. Today, I walked from my house to my camper behind my house, which is about 50 yards away, and I was breathing hard and felt so out of shape. How sad is that? I mean, yes, it is hot outside but I feel like I should be able to walk 50 yards.

I immediately got on Facebook and asked my friends list what advice they had for starting to run and lose weight. Fortunately, I have some amazing people in my friends list so I got a lot of advice and tips.

I’ve come to realize that I am a doormat to binge eating disorder and frankly, I’m tired of it. I want to lose weight, even if only to be able to walk to my camper or go on a hike without feeling like I’m dying on a zero elevation trail. I want to be able to save money and not spend it on snacks throughout the month. I want to feel confident in the clothes I wear and want to wear. I want to be able to walk up to the mailbox without feeling the need to ride the golf cart up there.

So here it is: my pledge. I am going to start dieting again. I am refusing to use the golf cart to navigate around the property at my house. I am going to start exercising and training for a 5k (using the Couch to 5k app). I am refusing to binge eat at any time of the day, especially at night.

Because I want to not only be held accountable, but also actually see any differences, I created an instagram account strictly for my weight loss journey. Please go follow the account and seriously… hold me accountable. I’ll post photos and videos of my journey. This will help me be honest with myself; if I feel embarrassed about taking a photo of the food I am eating, then maybe I shouldn’t be eating it, right?

I have to do this for myself. I hate this photo of myself (to the right) because of how big I am. I know I shouldn’t care, but it’s for my health, both physical and mental.

Let’s do this.