Please Stay Alive!

 

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I’m sitting here at the computer trying to figure out what I want or need to say. Here goes nothing…

We’re losing too many people to suicide. We’re not reaching out enough. We’re not supporting enough. If you’re supporting someone close to you to the best of your ability, great. But we still need to try to do more. I know that’s asking a lot, but they need us.
I’m one of those people that need support. Honestly, I think everyone is.
I’m not making sense, am I? My thoughts are all over the place.

The chaos feels normal to some people. It feels inviting. It feels…something. And most of the time, they…us…we don’t feel anything. I don’t know how else to explain it. It feels good to feel something. But when someone is close to suicide, or least when I almost did it myself, I felt like the chaos of what was happening was the only thing I deserved. It was the only thing that could satisfy the high I so craved for myself.
Nobody should crave it so bad that they feel like suicide is the answer. Because simply put, suicide isn’t the answer. I want everyone reading this to read that again.

Suicide is not the answer.

Those cliché things you hear or read might be cliché, but they’re true. It sounds corny, but it’s not because those clichés might save someone’s life. So, say them to your loved one suffering. Tell them, “You are loved. You are strong. You are valid. You are worthy.”
The thing is, these days, those “fake supporters” are everywhere. They only care until someone dies by suicide. Then in a few days, they don’t care anymore. When a celebrity dies by suicide, they care only that day. They post all the Facebook statuses they can about mental health, retweet all those tweets, but then the next day, they’re nowhere to be found. We can’t care for only one day. We need to care every single day, every single minute of every single day. We can’t stop caring about something as serious as suicide. It’s taking too many of our loved ones.
Stop being in a competition all the time and love everyone around you. Stop judging people and just love them. No matter what color. No matter what religion. No matter what sexual orientation. No matter what they look like or sound like or what music they listen to or what age they are. Just love them.
And while you’re loving them, support their mental health. Everyone around you, whether you know it or not, is having problems. Try to look for the signs if they’re not showing them on the top layer. We’re losing too many of our loved ones.

Suicide is an assassin. It’s a monster.

People would rather dance with their demons than try to live their beautiful lives because they’re not getting the support they need.
There are people in depression so deep that they don’t even think to ask for help. They need us. They need us to ask them how they’re doing. They need us to make them laugh.
We have to show we care. We have to do better.

If you’re one of those people who need someone to ask how you’re doing, let me ask you… how are you? How’s your day going?
I want everyone to know that if you need anything, please come to me. Yes, I have my own problems, but that doesn’t mean I can’t listen just to give you someone to vent to. You can call the suicide hotline or the crisis text line, too. They’ve saved my life at one time.

Suicide isn’t the answer, friends.

Please stay alive.

Suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255

Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741

Logan Paul…

If you don’t know about Logan Paul, he is a very popular video creator on YouTube. His fans are mostly younger children to older adolescents.

He recently uploaded a video (it has now been deleted) of him and some friends going camping in Suicide Forest in Japan.

Suicide Forest is a forest in Japan where, to be blunt, people go to die by suicide. These people feel so depressed, so worthless, that they go to this forest and kill themselves. Some leave notes, others do not.

The forest is believed to be haunted, which is why it is somewhat of a tourist attraction to those who do not plan to die by suicide.

Thousands of people go in to this forest every year and kill themselves. Tourists come along and find their tents, their old belongings, etc but it has been somewhat of a rare occurrence for someone to see a victim of suicide still in the forest.

Well, Logan Paul did.

Because this guy is so insensitive, he decided to keep filming. He got close up shots of the victim. Because he blurred out the face of the victim, he thought it was okay. He and his friends then decided to laugh about it, claiming that is how they coped.

Now, I do understand that is how some people cope. But why put it in a video? Why keep filming? Why upload it for the world to see, all while knowing the fans are mostly younger children?

I take suicide, mental health, and awareness/prevention very seriously. It is my life. I, along with A LOT of other advocates, are not gonna stand by and let Logan Paul get away with what he did. He did not make a mistake. He made a CHOICE. He CHOSE to continue filming, editing, and uploading that video. He knew it was wrong and did it anyway.

When you know something is wrong and you do it anyway, it’s no longer a mistake. It’s a choice. That’s why I don’t believe his apology.

I feel like my purpose in this world is to educate and advocate about mental health and suicide prevention, and that’s what I intend to do.

I’m literally in college to make helping people and educating people about mental health and suicide prevention my career. This is what I want to do. This situation just hurts my heart.