A new approach

Taking a new approach to things and situations can be difficult, but sometimes it’s for the best. So in my attempt to do this, I’ve created a different way to get inspired to write more. This idea popped in my head randomly, even though I’m pretty positive others have thought of it before.

The idea is this: write down some writing prompts (it’s okay to get ideas from Google; write down the ones you’re most interested in) on some note cards, fold them up, and put them in a jar. When you feel uninspired, shake the jar, pick a lucky note card, and boom. Write about what’s on the note card. The writing prompt that I picked was “Find your most popular blog post and write a second series of it or an update on it.” For me, my two most popular blog posts are “Well, here goes…” and “Dear Kobe.” There is honestly nothing else I feel I need to write about Kobe Bryant because it’s still such a sad and tragic loss, and it’s still pretty fresh. This year has felt like two years to me, but unbelievably, at least to me, Kobe only died 5 months ago. Maybe next year I’ll have more to write. Until then, I’ll write about the first post I mentioned, “Well, here goes…”

Basically, in that post, I wrote about having trouble losing weight despite having tried everything to lose the weight. I talked to doctors, did tests, tried a million and one diets, and nothing worked. I decided to have weight loss surgery. This post was written May 11, 2018, and I had the surgery on August 10, 2018. I did the whole thing; the diet leading up to it, the psychiatric testing, the exercising, the seminars, the appointments, everything, leading up to the surgery. For the first few months after the surgery, everything was going pretty good. It was difficult, I won’t lie, but it was okay. I noticed I wasn’t losing weight as quickly as I expected, and frankly, as my doctor expected. I was doing everything right; my mom was helping with portion control, making the right food, and helping me mentally when I really wanted something unhealthy.

I went to the follow up appointments and my stomach healed perfectly. I was sticking to the diet and losing weight here and there. I lost right at 30 pounds. I loved the way I felt and even looked. My face was slimmer and I even lowered my blood sugar, blood pressure, and cholesterol levels. I was so proud of myself, but in the back of my head, the depression said it wasn’t good enough. The thing is, it wouldn’t let me do what I had to do to lose more weight either. Eventually, I had that first bite of unhealthy food. It’s gone downhill since then.

I gained those 30 pounds back, plus about 5 more. I’m disappointed, I’m ashamed. I started trying to exercise again and I just do not have the energy to do it. I love hiking, but I haven’t hiked all year.

I went to my doctor about a month ago and asked her to check my thyroid because it can have a huge effect on weight loss and weight gain. I was even hoping there was something wrong just so it could be the solution to my problem. The tests came back normal.

I am starting to look into a personal trainer of some kind or even a nutritionist to help me. I will find out what I’m doing wrong or simply not doing to lose weight.

So that’s the update. The surgery didn’t work for me, but I have seen that it works for so many people. I would never discourage it, but don’t use it as an excuse to not put in the work. Having the surgery means putting in MORE work. It was the ultimate last resort for me. I am discouraged because of my weight loss journey, but I am not giving up. I just need to find what works for me. I’ve tried a lot of different things, but I haven’t tried them all. Finding the approach that works for me can be a life changer and life saver.

Ali

My Weight Loss Journey, part II

It is officially happening. I’m having weight loss surgery.

I know I said it was happening in part I, but now it really is happening! I couldn’t be more excited for this new journey in my life.

This past week, I saw a PA (physician’s assistant) and dietician, as well as attended the informational (and mandatory) bariatric seminar, lead by my surgeon. I was told by the PA that I am an excellent candidate for this surgery, based on my build and weight. He told me I will have success in my weight loss journey after the surgery. What words could be better than those? He told me that we could schedule my surgery around the end of July or early August, which blows my mind!

When I spoke to my dietician, she had nothing but positive words as well. She told me some things I need to stop drinking, such as sparkling water. I’ll miss it, but I’ll definitely get over it. We talked about pre-op and post-op diet, and I got some samples of protein drinks, since I’ll be drinking those for a month after the surgery.

The informational seminar was just that – informational. My surgeon talked for an hour about what the surgery does and what it will do for me. He spoke numbers, like percentages about mortality rates, which are very low. Below 1%. The seminar made me want the surgery even more.

Next appointment is July 17, and I believe it’s my pre-op date for all the testing. I should most likely get my surgery date then, hopefully. I see my dietician again two days after that, then we’re in the final stretch! It’s getting closer and closer to surgery day!

I’ve been exercising a lot and making sure to close my rings on my Apple Watch. The three rings consist of moving, exercising for 30 minutes, and standing at least 12 times a day for at least a minute to get rid of the sedentary lifestyle. I’ve been competing with other people and even though they’re kicking my butt, it’s still fun, friendly competition.

I still haven’t lost any weight. My weight is still fluctuating between 250 and 245. I can’t seem to get below 245. I’m currently 249.

Part III will be next month after my appointments and I’m constantly updating on my new Facebook page! www.facebook.com/aliveewriter

My Weight Loss Journey, part I

I mentioned last month that I was approved for weight loss surgery. Up until today, I was waiting to get psychiatric clearance. I got that clearance today so I will officially be having the surgery!

I promise this is not taking the “easy way out.” Just because people have this surgery doesn’t mean that it’s easy, so if you believe that, please keep reading this series. I’m going to continue to blog my experience during my weight loss journey. I’ve tried for years to lose weight, and nothing has worked because I give up so easily after not losing weight as fast as I want. I also feel as if my stomach is simply too big so I continue to eat until I’m full or sometimes even past full if it’s something I love eating.

So for almost 4 months, I’ve been exercising almost everyday. I even took up hiking, which I’m loving by the way. I got an Apple Watch so I can keep up with my workouts. I’ve been eating right, but with cheat days here and there. I even bought a basketball to get more cardio by playing a game with my niece and nephew.

People, when I say all that, I’m doing all that I can until my back pain gets too unbearable. It’s still not working. Surgery was the last resort, and I’m there now. Every single professional I have talked to about having weight loss surgery has said it’s a great idea for me and that’ll help me so much.

With all that being said, I’m going to continue to keep everyone updated on my weight loss journey. This is going to be difficult, because I hate disclosing my weight, but I’m going to do it. I’m going to conquer a fear, because that’s what my year has been about. Conquering fears and being happy. It’s been a great six months and I can’t wait for the next six. Here’s to getting healthy and happy!

Starting weight: 252 lbs.

Current weight: 246 lbs.