Addiction

I’ve struggled with the thought of posting this because I have been told not to “look up to someone with addiction problems.”

Demi Lovato, though, is more than that. I don’t want to sound like a “fan girl” but I guess I just will. Demi Lovato has saved my life a few times. She’s open about her mental health, addiction being one of the main things. She was sober for six years and recently relapsed and went into the hospital for a possible overdose. Luckily she is okay, and I think about how life would change without one of my role models in it.

I know… “You’ve never even met her.” I realize that. But the cool thing about social media or even speaking out is that you don’t have to meet someone for them to have a major impact on your life or for you to impact someone else.

I honestly have no idea how to even continue because I’m so terrified of how people will react to me freaking out, crying, and worrying so hard about a celebrity. Celebrities are human too though and I think people forget that.

I remember when I was in group therapy, I would drive there every morning listening to “Warrior” by Demi Lovato because it would give me a sense of power before I started my day. I would sing the words to myself when I could and it would help me fight. I was so scared of dying, but I wanted to die. I know it doesn’t make sense, but it’s the truth.

I’m done sounding like a “fan girl” as someone has told me in the past.

Someone with an addiction is crying out for help right now. Are you going to help them, or judge them and ignore them? Despite what some may think, addiction is not a choice. Addiction is a mental illness and people need our help. It doesn’t matter who it is. Demi Lovato is in the news right now, so let’s send her uplifting messages, not messages that put her down or messages saying that you don’t feel sorry for her.

How in the world would that help anyone dealing with an addiction? The human species are supposed to be in this together; this life. So let’s help each other. Really.

If you or someone you know is dealing with an addiction, please seek help. There is no shame. Those that do shame you do not matter. There are so many resources to get help, so please take that first step! You are worth it!

Dear Katy

 

Dear Katy,

I know we weren’t super close, but you were my first friend in my mental health journey. You showed me so many things, including how to love and let go. During my hardest of times, you were always just a text away. I remember when we were in group therapy together, you bought me cake and slushies from Sonic. We would walk over to the front entrance and go to the vending machine to get Cokes and you would make me go, even when my lazy self didn’t want to. But our conversations were amazing. From straight up goofy to you preaching to me to you inspiring me, those conversations were conversations that I looked forward to every day.
I also remember the time we went to pick up Little Caesar’s pizza for the group and you drove and I held on for dear life. Good times were had when I was screaming while you drove.
Katy, you were inspiring. Despite everything that came your way, you kept fighting, and you inspired others to keep fighting too. You were funny, you were a great friend, and you were amazing.
I want you to know that things will be okay down here until we meet again. I’m gonna fight in your name. Not only do I fight for myself, but now I fight for you. I’m so glad you’re not suffering anymore; you’re up there with Jesus, probably eating cake and playing with dogs.

Your last Facebook post was Romans 8:18, which happens to be my favorite verse… “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” How perfect.
I love you and I miss you.
Ali